The Akashic Records are the collective consciousness. Think of it as an enormous database that holds a record of every choice ever made. The Records can be accessed for healing our past and creating a new reality for ourselves by making new choices. Animals as totems and spirit guides can assist in holding up a mirror to our innermost being, whether they show up as symbols in our lives, dreams, visions or by literally crossing our paths. In this post I’m going to share my own story, exactly a decade after its first activation in my life. Why now? Because it has surfaced again in my consciousness for healing, and now I’m ready to heal it. Perhaps sharing it with you will speed my healing. Perhaps it can help you in some way.
After my daughter was born I got divorced and moved back home to regroup and raise her. I started making jewelry and developing a business. In 2005 I met someone who triggered a reawakening of sorts in me… to put it more accurately- it stirred up a soul-level shitstorm of past life memories of love, loss and astonishing heartbreak. I had never experienced anything of this magnitude and didn’t know what to do with it. I shut down, cried for months, didn’t date or seek out a new relationship for years. This experience became a point of reference in my life. It was the catalyst for accelerated spiritual learning and development that is still happening. I’ve had migraines my entire life and it was through this experience that I learned the root cause of my headaches and was able to heal them (news flash: I was the root cause!). However, I had hidden myself away after this experience because it was so painful, and continued to do so for 10 years! But recently, with help from a mentor, another layer of this soul story surfaced to be healed. It was synchronous with my decision to consciously work with my shadow animal.
I learned, through accessing my Akashic record, that I was recreating one of my own past life stories again, involving the person I met ten years ago who was also in that life with me. Meeting him again in this life, followed by his subsequent leaving (which happened in that life too- with his death) triggered the pain and memories for me, which was overwhelmingly confusing, because I didn’t know why the feelings were happening or from where they originated. As a result I followed my soul’s pattern of re-creating what happened in that lifetime, which was: after that loss, I moved back home with my parents and essentially went into hiding. I didn’t allow myself the pleasure of dating and meeting new people. For a very long time, I questioned my self-worth and felt guilty. This was showing up in my sacral chakra as an imbalance and under-activity. What does the sacral chakra deal with? Pleasure, creativity, feelings/the right to feel, manifesting at the physical level, one-on-one relationships/sex, money. So now, the time has come for me to create something new for myself. I can do this now because I see how I’ve created everything in my experience, in this life and in all the others. Once we are consciously aware of our choices, it becomes easier to make better ones.
How does shadow animal work fit into this? When I became aware of the roots of this big story of mine and made the decision to heal, it was obvious that it qualified as shadow work. I didn’t know what my creature was so I meditated and asked it to come forward. It was a scorpion. What chakra does the zodiac sign of Scorpio rule? You guessed it- the sacral. The scorpion is teaching me to come out of the shell I’ve built and to be vulnerable- less defensive. It’s teaching me how to re-balance that sacral chakra energy, allow myself pleasure, re-discover my passions and to quit feeling guilty. Consciously doing these things for myself helps to heal that old, old story. I don’t feel as if I’ve completed this work yet, but it’s been a huge breakthrough, and as we accept and integrate the medicine of our shadow animal, it can become our greatest ally. Two other things I discovered which really brings this home for me: the person from this soul story is a Scorpio, and my shadow teacher in the Tarot is the Death card, which is another Scorpio association and the card of transformation.
Do you have a soul story you need to heal but feel like you’re running up against a brick wall? A Soul Realignment(R) Akashic Records session can break down those walls. Ready to work with your shadow and bring it into the light? I can help illuminate that for you with a Shadow Totem mini reading. Contact me here for more information.
Oodles of blessings on you,
Sara Martin: Twin Flame Rehabber, Creatrix of Talismans